This is the post that I've dreaded writing but I'm finding is oddly liberating. I had mentioned previously that I've had some misfortune lately and some fears were realized.
September 1st: I found out I was preggo. Jumping for joy doesn't even cover our surprise and excitment. We'd been trying/not trying (if it happen it happen kinda attitude) since last October. It looked like our time had finally come. The same morning I found out I made an OB/GNY appt for the next morning so we would be able to confirm the home test. This put me at 4/5 weeks along.
September 2: I had my appointment and had a blood test done.
September 4: I had some spotting at about 4 am. I was scared but had heard this happens to a lot of people.
September 5 ( Labor Day): we told my parents cuz' we couldnt keep it in any longer.
September 6: I had to go back to the Dr. to check my HCG levels. The first blood results came back at 117.
September 7: I get a phone call from the Dr that my blod test from the previous day had come back. My HCG levels had dropped down to only 32. She informed me that it was not a viable pregnancy and I would lose this baby. I would start miscarrying soon.
September 8: The miscarriage starts. I won't go into detail there but lets say its 10x worse then your normal monthly "visit". Emotionally I was a wreck. Crying all the time, sad at the loss and not knowing how to deal with it. In just the weeks time, I'd already gotten attached to my baby.
For over two weeks following that I was still bleeding and feeling horrible. I was a b*tch and didn't care what anyone said or did. I was also going to the Dr every two/three days to check my blood levels. My arms were black and blue from all the tests, and I had to keep answering questions about what was wrong with me. I expecially loved when the lab lost a blood test and I had to go back the very next day and do it all over again. I think in September I gave blood over 10 times.
To make matters worse, the lab screwed up a blood test and told the Dr. that my HCG levels had gone back up. Which ment I was ectopic or there was a problem with my miscarriage. Hence, this nightmare was now being coninutally dragged on.
It's looking like things are finally getting back to normal now. I had what I hope it my last blood test this morning. As long as its showing my levels are still down then this is over. Fingers crossed.
I'm not posting this out of sympathy. More or less this is my story about something that happens to 80% of women. Thats a little fun fact I had no idea about. Most women just don't even know they've miscarried because it happens to early on.
For the next few months I'm just going to let my body recover and get my head straight before we even start thinking of trying again. I'm praying we have better luck next time...